Soaking Up Summer

I have less than one week left of Summer and it is so bittersweet. To think this is my last summer as a student?! It is so crazy to me. Ive been trying to soak up the last few days I have left with Eli. Tomorrow we leave for vacation with the whole family and I am very excited for that. We are going to Virginia so I am not looking forward to the 6 hour ride with a toddler. We’re going to check out Busch Gardens and Virginia Beach. One last hoorah before school starts I suppose.

These pictures were taken yesterday.  As you all know, or might know, I do not drive due to stress related issues and just pure laziness, so we stayed home the whole day. I went to the gym for about two hours but most of the day we stayed home so I took tons of pics of Eli. Early in the morning it was actually kind of chilly so I was able to put a cute sweater on him that was way too big for him. He then drooled on it so I changed him again. honestly, Ive never seen a cute toddler as cute as Eli but what do I know. I am a biased mom and I am Eli’s biggest fan haha.

Eli Update!

So as mentioned on my previous post, Eli turned one! And because I SUCK AT BLOGGING, he is actually now fifteen months old. Yes, my baby is no longer a baby although everyone still calls him a baby because he is still a size of a baby! 

Anyway, he turned one on March 31, 2018. We didn’t have his birthday party till two weeks after that (april 14) because he was actually serving as a ring bearer for his godparents’ (Sarah and Ben)  wedding on his first birthday which was a ton of fun! Sarah is actually Fitz’s cousin and Ben happens to be a very close friend of Fitz so basically the whole family was in the wedding and people got to see Eli walk down the aisle! I will include some photos to aid you guys visually, unfortunately I can’t put videos on here which SUCKS. I’ll probably be able to upgrade my wordpress account in the near future though.

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Okay so this picture of Eli on the left is him the day before he turned one. He has been known as the baby with a head full of hair if you can’t already tell by that picture. The day before he turned one, we decided to cut his hair off, which I sometimes regret until now. But honestly, he is so cute with both hairstyles. I actually think I’m going to grow it out again. Now this picture  of Eli on the bottomishh right is Eli RIGHT after his haircut! Did I mention I cried while he was getting it done? I don’t know why I got so emotional, I think the moment I could start shaping out Eli’s face without all that hair on it, he just looked older to me AND the fact that he was turning one the next day.  Not a good combo. I think since. March he’s had three haircuts but I thought about it and like I said earlier, I really am thinking about growing it out again. We’ll see.

Now this other picture of him with a cupcake is his actual first birthday. This was the morning of his birthday and I remember just singing happy birthday to him and cuddling him and showing him all his baby pictures of him. I also remember laying down with Fitz reminiscing the few days we spent together before Eli came into the world and looking back at the days we spent in the hospital when our lives changed! Eli’s first birthday was honestly kind of hectic. Fitz was a groomsman so he was out of the house before we were for pictures and stuff. I had to get ready by myself and get Eli ready by myself as well so that was kind of hard. I swear, when you become a mom, you literally learn how to do things with one hand because Im pretty sure I was carrying Eli half of the time I was getting ready because he was very cranky due to lack of nap. Everything turned out ok though. He looked so cute for the wedding and he danced A TON!!

Now my little sunshine is FIFTEEN MONTHS! The photos above are taken at fifteen months, but don’t be fooled! He make look the same, but he is so different in so many ways. Because he did start walking at ten months, which is pretty early for a boy, he is basically a pro now! He is practically running when he’s really excited. He still sleeps with mommy and daddy. We tried to put him back in his pack n play, but thats not happening anytime soon because I am NOT ready to take him away from the bed and he isn’t ready to sleep on his own. DON’T JUDGE... every mom moms differently and cosleeping just happens to work for us. He eats a lot, but is definitely more picky now. He still loves his basic fruits; grapes, strawberries, blueberries, and bananas, but we introduced a new one which he is totally in love with: MANGOES! Just like his mama.

He is still the crazy Eli. He’s bumped his head a few times. We actually took him to the ER just a few days ago because he fell off the bed from jumping and playing and it left a dent on his head. He was perfectly fine though, back to himself right away. He no longer takes the pacifier because we successfully weaned him off before he turned one! He had his first dentist appointment last month and now has 8 teeth! He can say a ton of words like “Bye, baby, ball, car, shoes, cow, duck” and many more. He is now both and a mommy and daddy’s boy.

He is a growing boy and is definitely developing into his own person. I can’t believe my little newborn is now a toddler. I remember when he was just a few weeks old people would constantly tell me to enjoy this time with him because it goes by fast. Man, it really does. It’s not a joke. I literally feel like I just blinked and he was no longer fully dependent on us. I mean this kid will take his own snacks from his snack bin and get his water bottle when he wants to. He’ll get off the bed if he wants to play and will point at something that is interesting to him. He is growing. He is gonna get big whether I like it or not and that’s just reality.

But okay, Im pretty much done with this update of Eli. That’s basically everything thats new about him. I’m going to go cry now because this post just reminded me of how fast he’s growing up and it honestly kills me.



Happy Eleven Months Eli!

I do not know why it took me basically FOREVER to post about this, but my baby is eleven months old now. I’m literally like almost a month late because in one week and like three days he will be turning one. I guess the reason why I have been putting this off is because I have been really emotional. It started during my spring break. I spent the whole week with him and I started really thinking about the very first day Fitz and I brought him home and how everything was hard at first and how we were definitely challenged by parenthood. Now we laugh at those times and giggled about how clueless we were. At the same time it makes me very sad because we cannot get those moments back with Eli. Time flew by SO fast. He is going to be one. I’m practically going to have a toddler in a week or so. He is no longer a baby.
I know I should be happy about it. We survived A YEAR as parents to a beautiful boy, but now I feel nothing but sadness. Happy, but sad..? It’s a bittersweet moment really. Ugh I’ll save the extra sappy post for when he’s one.

Moving along… I am so proud to say that we have reached the biggest milestone of all and that is W A L K I N G! Technically he started walking at ten months, a week or so before he turned eleven. Ugh I have such a smart boy in my hands. He is definitely babbling/talking a lot more. He has learned how to give hugs and he somewhat knows how to kiss like for real, not just pursing his lips and making that smacking noise. Also this boy is definitely someone who wants HIS way. He has been testing us. He thinks he’s the boss hahaha, he’s funny. I constantly remind him WE’RE the boss by glaring at him whenever he whines and it works most of the time. He’s also been interested in putting lids back on containers. He also knows how to work a remote. Hmm what else?

OH! They ruled out Dairy for his list of allergies. Now we only have to work with eggs and peanuts although I know that peanuts will probably stay there forever. With peanuts only 20% of kids outgrow them and eggs, almost all kids outgrow them. The good news is that he can actually tolerate baked in eggs, but he can’t eat boiled eggs, sunny side up, scrambled… which sucks because those are literally the easiest breakfast meals to make!

So…. ok I think that’s it for now for his eleven month update. He is literally turning one in like a two weeks or a week ish so you will be seeing a post like this again… with more tears and sappiness.

Happy Ten Months Eli!

Processed with VSCO with hb2 preset Happy Ten Months to my little ray of sunshine. I seriously cannot believe that in about two months I will have a one year old! It’s crazy to think about it. These ten months with Eli flew by so fast. I don’t know if its because of school keeping me busy or if it’s really just him growing up so fast, but man…. time flew. When Eli was first born and we introduced him to everyone and when everyone met him for the first time, ALL the moms I knew kept telling us “enjoy this moment because it will go by fast” and I always brushed it off, not that I didn’t listen to them, but it was more of like “Okay, I already knew that”, not in a mean way though. BUT, IT IS SO SO TRUE. The first year of having a baby in my opinion, is the sweetest part. The first year is coming to an end, and I really am not ready to let it go.

Okay, I’m gonna stop being sappy and move onto Eli’s milestones. HE IS TAKING STEPS!! So our nine month appointment was late and ended up having it a few days after he turned ten months. We didn’t have our normal pediatrician look at him, so it was this other doctor who was a woman. She was nice, but made me worried about Eli’s height for no reason. Our normal pediatrician is this guy named Dr. Dang and he’s Asian and ever since the beginning he’s always told us that Eli was small which was something Fitz and I both expected because well, first we are asians, and second, we are small people. I am only about 5 ft and Fitz is only 5’6 or around there. But the thing is, Dr. Dang never made us worry about Eli’s height because he’s had tons of asian patients who grew slow or were just small in general.

Ugh but when we came into this appointment, the first thing this new doctor tells us is that Eli is really small for his age (which we already knew) and she ran some tests on his which made me so nervous. Days after we got the results of the blood work and everything is normal. I honestly believe Eli will have a spontaneous growth spurt sometime later, but not now. Yes, I am an anxious mama, lol.

Anyway, yes Eli is taking steps! The most he’s taken is 6 I think. He also sleeps through the night now (Thank God) and is drinking less milk and eating more solids. He has a normal meals now in terms of breakfast, lunch, and dinner. He claps his hands when you ask hi, points to the light, will raise his arms when you say ‘hooray’, he points at things now. He is also definitely more aware that we are his parents. Sometimes when we drop him off at daycare, he’ll cry lol.

My baby is growing and I really have to cherish all these precious moments with him. 

A change of mindset, PLEASE

I really need to change my mindset about what being a good mom is. I was going to post about this before school started, but I got really emotional.

When I found out I was pregnant with Eli around August of 2016, I decided to still attend Fall of 2016, but take off Spring of 2017 since I was due April 15, which was actually two weeks before finals. That would not have been good? Plus, I actually gave birth March 31 and went through Postpartum Depression for a while, so that was not good at all. Going back to school would not have been an option. I was pretty lucky. I had about 6 months with Eli before I had to go back. He was about to turn 6 months when Fall semester of 2017 started.

It was very hard to leave him. Knowing I wouldn’t see him all the time broke my heart, but I really wanted to finish school, get my degree, take the boards, catch my dream, and work hard for my family. I sucked it up.

I was super excited for winter break to come, cause that meant more time with Eli and I did. I spent a whole month with him, He was sick for like a week, but that’s when I got the most cuddles and cuddles are always great.

FOR SOME REASON THOUGH, IT WAS HARDER LEAVING HIM THIS TIME. Way harder than leaving him the first time. I think it was because he was super clingy to me during the entire break and he knew me and smiled every morning he would wake up next to me. He chose me over anyone, even over Fitz. He loved bath time with me and he just loved playing with me and we really bonded over break. This is when I got really emotional.

The night before class started I started telling myself I was a horrible mother. I was a horrible mother because instead of taking care of him, he’s in daycare most of the week while I’m in school. I started thinking that the definition of being a good mother is being with your baby 24/7. I hate when I start thinking like that because then I can’t focus on school.

Until now I still think about it just a little bit. I just want things to be easier. 

Eli at Nine Months

0ADBEF6C-2D86-4817-B714-3A69473AB995Eli is nine months! He turned nine months on New Years Eve and was sick as ever, but still smiling, just a little bit cranky. I can’t believe he will be the BIG ONE in three months. I know a lot of people say this but I literally feel like it was just yesterday when he came home for the first time. A lot of older people who have older kids tell me to ‘enjoy these moments’ with him because these are the moments that will go by so fast… and I’m trying. I really am. Everyday I see him I just want to cuddle with him and squeeze him in my arms, agh. I don’t even want to go back to school. These past three weeks with him have been so tiring, but amazing. Can’t wait for the summer!

Updates: Eli is TRYING to walk. Since six or seven months he has been using tables or chairs or anything he can find to pull himself up. NOW he can do it on his own. He just sticks his but up, puts both of his palms on the floor and push himself up. Oh! He can also stand on his own for like ten seconds. While pulling himself up, he can also transfer from one ledge to another. He understands the word “no” and will point up if you ask him ‘where is the light’. He will also clap his hands if you ask him and sometimes will give you a high five.

I am trying to feed him more filipino food so he’ll get used to it but ugh he is so picky! He has two teeth and one front tooth coming out!

That’s basically all the update I have on Eli for now. For sure if there is another update, I will post!